Im feeling like a really mean kid now.

Just like how the bratty kid next door won't share his chocolates with you because he thinks you're an idiot.

So today was a crap day, i wasn't in the best of conditions to start with.
Soreness, husky throat and throbbing headache is completely not something you should attend a training with.

But yah, i cheng qiang and still went to act macho and bravo.
Mona talked with us 2093580493865 hours about "settling the scores with our attendance".
I thought I missed out one day but she didn't question or demand be about anything so i couldn't care less.

After that coach started us to 1-2-2 defense and 2-1-2 attack.
Which is a complete failure in my side of the court.
It's like , he separated the supposed good ones to one court, and the rest of us monkeys to the other.

He kept asking me if i had a problem with my brain and I got quite offended by what he said.
Obviously he was showing favouritism to some people.
The fact that I'm a left hander proves that i move and do things differently from others , but yah, he couldn't care less either.

Then halfway he started getting really angry and called us stupid and stuff, which was really retarded because we just did what he told us to. -.-
Then Syazana had this real bad sprain, and me+heeleng supported her to the sides.
and coach gave me that face when I was helping her.

Like, am i supposed to just leave her lying in the middle of the court, waiting for bird crap to land on her, and probably a few bolts of lightning to strike her defenseless body?
Sheesh.

Luckily it was near the end of training and he left.
I brightened considerably and we help syazana to Mona's car as she was giving her a lift home.
me and wanyee had to follow syazana.

after we hung around for a bit, me and wanyee went to lot1 for dinner,
in which we talked about certain things that make me feel very very very agitated.

then we went home, syazana's mom kept checking on me and wanyee.
talked to syazana all the way home to distract myself from the scary shadows and lights and all.

So now, we're already one man down, syazana has a very very (almost no) chance of getting into school team because of her reallly bad sprain.( it made a tough cookie like her cry)

darn, if it was me i'd probably have cried till my water content in my body ran out and transform myself into a shriveled up piece of plum.
gah.

then tomorrow's the match against juying.
somehow i am really affected by the attitude of everyone.

even though its damn important to me, i cant make a decision.
so yeah.






we've had our fun.
now it's different.
showing you, im much happier this way.